There is a beast branded inside of me. I can be careless and just flat out evil sometimes. Like the fall of Troy I regret this more than anything in the world. To love and to lose is the worse feeling. I have fallen in love with my Maiden of Madrid and now it has crumbled in my weak, vile hands. My heart is at home when I am around her and now she has left, I feel like a child in a corner. I cant describe love, I don’t think anyone can. It is a feeling of gratitude and acceptance that cant be obtained. Your heart is like Chernobyl. But the departure of love is the most vulnerable feeling. I love Katie with all my heart, there’s something inside of me that tells me there is something more. There’s this idea of hope and serenity that lies in my heart when I think of her. Billy and Trenton are my brothers but Katie is my best friend. You’ll fall hard when you lose your best friend. She is the 8^th wonder of the world. I am Columbus sailing the ocean with no place to go who has found America. I found love and now love has retreated back into the sea. I wish and I wish on countless stars that she will find her way back home. I will be there in a field waiting for her with open arms on a sunny morning. I will always be here for her. I will be the man in the iron mask. She’s my Maiden of Madrid and I will always be here for here.

Coasting downhill on a bike with the wind in your hair is a feeling beyond any emotion. The countryside is green and the sun peeks through clouds and you can hear everything. Nature speaks in tongues and Katie and I are all ears. Joy is the only feeling I can really describe. Being with her makes me feel infinite. I feel like a human. We laugh and smile at each other as the hill becomes flat. she’s ahead of me but I pull up next to her and we hold each others hand as we set voyage into the great wonder of the world called love as we enter the starting point, the sun.

I look at Katie and she is smiling and the sun’s rays burst into memories that I will always remember. We stopped to take a break and sat down on some old, crusty park bench. Her hair is fluttering in the wind and her charm is making me sweat. This morning in particular has been the most beautiful I have ever seen. The sky is so kind today, the weather is just at ease and I am relaxed with girl I’m in love with. I tell her how much I love her and she tells me that she loves me too and my heart melts with a feeling of being loved and accepted. I always tell her how much I love her even though I feel like annoy her by saying it. I just have to tell her though. Revolutions and revelations, this is genesis.